I'm quite worthless you know. At least that's what I feel. I put myself in this magic place in my head where everything is OK.
This place has me feeling like I am thin, beautiful, not broke & happy. Everything is good in my head place, no bad happens ....... and I am wanted. By my family.
Outside this place it's very different indeed.
It's a dark place. I am hated. I am unwanted. I am broke (although it's not about the money). I am fat. I am far from beautiful.
And I hate myself 100%. I wanted to stop breathing last night, I knew how it would be today. I was in tears because I knew that the happiness I was feeling right then was not going to last beyond that simple thought of being happy.
Everyone else can be happy.....why not me? Why can't o fix things so it can be that way?
I don't want to be bitter, angry of sad. I just want what everyone else gets. What others take for granted.
Happiness, love, wanted & ......... I don't know what else.